There comes a time when we all have to give into our feelings. Rediscover our heart and feel our soul unwind. I've traveled down a lane to which the light of my life begun to dim. I feel a sense of heartbreak. A deep loss of life. Not the loss of a person, but the loss of my self. My sense of being.
I look to the Gods for discovery; their direction. I am in need of hope and guidance. When I wake from my dreams, I believe in a place that will hold me close and nurture my mind. In a moment of prayer, I was blessed with five gifts.
All of which share a piece of my heart and glimpses of my identity. My beloved children. Perfectly created and shaped from the lord's love. Five individuals who push me to grow and discover the very place I dream about.
I am touched by their heart and empowered by their confidence. They show me how to be fearless. They teach me to embrace the very things I fear. I look down and see a valley. I see the place I once allowed to tear me apart. It looks dark from where I stand. Is it possible to grow from weeds and still be a beautiful flower? What determines this transformation?
If I let go of all that I know to be, will I finally be free from my self destruction? I hear the undertones of the negative music spreading about me. I believed the false truths spoken off the lips of the once friendly. They filled my head with belief and hope. Yet here I am, broken into crumbs of disappointment.
There is light that has slowly begun to shine upon me. It's a glue. It's pulling my back together piece by piece. I feel the smallest and warmest hands mending my broken meaning. Their touch gives me an unspoken sense of courage. I begin to form. I am growing stronger and beginning to stand up. One step at a time and I'm learning to walk. Suddenly, like lightening, my heart begins to beat to a tune I've never heard.
There they stand before me with the love and compassion I was missing. They believe in me. They can see through my fears. They know my existence. I felt weak. I felt afraid. I felt failure. They took it all and buried it with grace and love. They tell me, I am their comfort. I am their happy. I am the reason.
A surge of life comes from deep within. And now I stand.. full of glory... will to strive. I hear their music. I feel their joy. Stand tall they say. Believe. Overcome and Be. I look to the Gods and I am Awaken!
